Everything You Need

What if you already have everything you need? And what if what you felt you lacked was already on its way or what if what you felt you lacked you didn’t really need?

I believe that we always have everything we need. If we needed more in that moment, we’d have it. The Universe and God are good like that. They withhold nothing from us. It is only our perceptions of need and lack that deceive and mislead. When we feel discontent it’s because there is a disconnect. The best cure for feeling discontent is to stop focusing on what it is you feel you lack and instead start focusing on everything you already have.

When you practice gratitude your vision expands. The very act of adding up your many blessings shifts your focus to an entirely different division wherein your blessings appear to multiply. This phenomenon isn’t magical or mysterious. It’s actually quite natural to see what you are looking for.  Focus on lack, you’ll see it. Shift your focus to your blessings and your eyes will be opened to the abundance you already possess. Your blessings aren’t magically multiplying. They were always there and you are finally focused on seeing them. This connection to God and abundance causes contentment. And what is happiness but contentment?

There is power in realizing that you always already have everything you need. This realization will free you from worry, stress, and discontent. The next time you are feeling as if you lack something or need something, stop and count your blessings. Start with the fact that you already have everything you need or else you wouldn’t be alive. You are breathing, your heart is beating, you probably have family or friends, you most likely aren’t starving and you probably have a roof over your head or a warm place to sleep. Sure you may need more money (everyone thinks they do), or you may be experiencing ill-health (everyone gets sick at some time or another) but right now, at this moment, you are fine because you are alive!

Breathe. Count your blessings. Remember that God is good and is vested in you. He will provide for your every need when you need it most. He wants you to be happy as much as he wants you to learn, develop and grow. He will ensure you have everything you need to do all three. Happiness, however, is something he can’t give you for you must learn how to choose happiness. You must learn that happiness has nothing to do with circumstance but rather is a byproduct of content. When you learn to see that you always already have everything you need and that whatever you feel you may currently lack–if you really need it–is already on its way, then you will stop worrying and instead you’ll trust in and connect with that very Being who governs and supplies light and life to all His creations.

Don’t disconnect through discontent. Claim happiness now through contentment and connection. Gratitude is the fastest way to multiply your blessings.

Squeezing an Orange

Loved the idea Dr. Dyer conveyed today about squeezing an orange. A woman called into his daily radio show all concerned about her upcoming trip home. Her parents vex her and she sought advice on how not to let them pull her strings. She was so worried that they would bring out the worst in her.

Dr. Dyer explained what I’m going to call The Parable of Squeezing Oranges.

What do you get when you squeeze an orange? It’s impossible to get grape juice. It’s impossible to get grapefruit juice. If you squeeze an orange you get orange juice.

The same is true with people. If you are a loving, kind person, when someone squeezes you, they should get loving kindness. If they get something other than orange juice when they squeeze you, you aren’t an orange.

Here this woman was worried about how her parents would bring out the worst in her and Dr. Dyer so lovingly explained that her parents were only squeezing out what she was. If she wasn’t full of craziness, her parents wouldn’t be able to squeeze that out of her.

This concept reminds me of C.S. Lewis’ teaching about rats in the cellar. If you want to know if there are rats in a cellar you won’t find them when you are in bustling about in the cellar lights on. You are going to discover rats in the cellar when you take them by surprise. You’ve got to fling open the door when they are least prepared.

If oranges are love, then I want to produce orange juice when squeezed.

Which leads me to believe that if God is love, he can’t produce anything but love when squeezed. Which means I can never do anything to produce anything but love from Him. Which means He loves me no matter what. Whew, that’s a relief. There goes a whole lot of pressure.

squeeze an orange

the juice is sweet

squeeze my God

the love runs deep

squeeze myself

what do you see?

loving-kindness?

or bitter seeds?

The title to this poem shall be God is Love

Wanting More

Wanting More is a topic near and dear to my heart right now. Here’s why:

Dr. Dyer was discussing the merits of wanting for others more of what you want for yourself. At the time I heard it I was trying to think of ways to help Tyler and his family stay afloat while also keeping KickFire afloat. I was feeling a little concerned about how to manage both–and do right by all– when Wayne imparted what I’m now calling, the wisdom of wanting more.

It was comforting to know that in my moment of crisis I wasn’t only looking out for my backside. I was pleased that I truly had an innate desire to make sure everyone was provided for and okay. But in my heart of heart, I couldn’t yet claim that I was the type of person who was wanting more for others that which I wanted for myself. I was just wanting everything to be okay.

In fact, I had moments where all I wanted to do was walk–no, run–away. It would be so easy for me to close up shop and have all of this no longer be my problem. But thankfully, the Good Lord, God, Universe, Spirit, or [insert your spiritual superpower semantics here], helped keep me feeling invested. He still helps me daily carry the burden. Had I to shoulder this burden alone, crushed I’d be already. God, friends, family, my entire KickFire Crew, and most importantly my faith, continues to pull me through–they always do.

And so this idea that I can want for others that which I want for myself–wanting it even more for them than I want it for me–meaning I don’t just want Rebecca and her family to also be provided for, but that I want them to be provided for as much as I want it for myself and then I add a dash, or a lump, or a full-fledge cup of even more wanting for them.

Yes, I also have a need for security, but I want it as much and now a little–no a lot–more for her than I want it even more for me. . . now that there is something. Something I want to strive for because it really wasn’t something I had even before considered.  When I heard Dr. Dyer speak about what I’m now calling the wisdom of wanting more, it hit me dead center. I knew it was true and what I wanted, not only for Rebecca’s security but for also for who I wanted to be. I, Janelle Page, want to be that type of person who wants more for others that of which I want for myself.

I’ve before heard the saying, “want more for others than you want for yourself,” and it isn’t nearly as powerful as wanting for others that which you want for yourself–to such a degree that you want to see them get what you want for yourself as much, and even more, than you want it for you.

It’s definitely the higher law and a beautiful companion to Jesus’ teaching:

Do unto others as you would have done unto you

The universe smiles upon those who want for others as much as and more so as they want for themselves. I always loved Zig Ziglar’s saying:

You can have anything in the world you want if you just help enough other people get what they want.

Perhaps we can apply the wisdom of wanting more principle to Zig’s teaching too and say:

You can have anything in the world you want if you first help enough other people get what you want.

Birds of Prey

Yesterday and today I had a cool experience with birds of prey. I was on my Sunday stroll and saw a deer. Deer are a sign between God and me–literally. One day when I was hiking up in Nordic Valley, I asked God to send me our traditional deer sign. You see whenever I’m hiking, or out and about meditating, God lets me know he’s near using deer, monarch butterflies, and yellow-breasted finches. It’s something I’ve come to count on. So this day in Nordic Valley I was nearing the conclusion of my hike and hadn’t yet seen any deer. So I mentioned the fact to Heavenly Father and asked him for a sign that he was near. I continued along my path only to look up and see this sign:

God’s cleverness made me laugh–the sign of the deer! I smiled at the Heavens as I loudly proclaimed: “Touché.” I kept right on running and that’s when something even more remarkable happened. I looked up and but 10 yards in front of me a beautiful doe and her fawn bounded across the street. I stopped and watched in total awe. How does one even begin to convey the wonder and goodness of God?

So yesterday as I was walking, deep in thought, you can imagine my delight as a deer caught my sight. It was in a pasture on the polygamist plantation. I wasn’t looking for it nor expecting it, God was simply letting me know that he was here and near.

I immediately tuned into my surroundings and discovered among the many chirping birds, the cry of a hawk. I tried to discover its location and couldn’t till it cried aloud again. It was sitting atop a nearby tree.  I closed my eyes and tried to get the spirit to make it fly. I knew spirit could do it as they often use animals to communicate with us. But try as I might, I couldn’t get spirit to make the bird fly. So I concentrated my mental powers further, meditating more intently. And that’s when spirit taught me that animals cannot be coerced. They are simply mediums and they must be willing participants. Most of the time, they will go and do, happily, but since spirit wasn’t the bird and simply was asking the bird to fly and then the bird gets to decide. . . this particular bird wasn’t willing. In fact, spirit let me know that birds of prey can be a little more difficult to work with than other birds. I found that fascinating and it did make perfect sense to me. I felt as if Spirit said to me, “walk on and hold on.” My feeling was confirmed as I opened my eyes and saw this sign:

It made me smile and it convinced me to once again start walking. And that’s when it happened. . . after I had moved along about 20 yards I saw a huge hawk fly overhead. The sighting sent chills up and down my spine and caused my bones to quake like Aspen trees–all feelings that have special meaning for it’s one of the ways spirit lets me know its near and guiding me.

And so that’s my little Sunday story about spirit and birds of prey, but oh, lest I forget, this morning as I was working out, we saw a huge bird atop a light pole. We ran over to get a closer look and there sat a turkey vulture. I took it as another sign from spirit. Birds of prey were everywhere yesterday and today!

He Handed Me the Story

I feel like God has handed me the Obtineo launch story. I mean after yesterday’s post, I received this picture and audio message from Rebecca:

 

Rebecca left the room while Tyler received therapy and when she returned, she found Tyler teaching the nurse and speech therapist how to play Obtineo. He was promoting troops and Rebecca was like, “What is going on here?” to which Tyler responded, “They wanted me to teach them how to play.”

 

I also woke up this morning with another brilliant idea. The social sharing video must open with Tyler holding Obtineo and looking into the camera as he says: “I love this game!”

Again, I cannot take any credit for this incredible campaign for He handed me the story (He=God). Check out how it all turned out here on our KickStarter page.

Obtineo

Obtineo means to Obtain or Conquer–and that’s pretty fitting considering what Tyler is now facing.

Back in January 2015, we started working on a Kickstarter project for Obtineo the board game. It was another one of Tyler’s pet projects.  Unfortunately, other endeavors kept popping up, sidelining our progress. This summer, Tyler had finally had enough with the detours and delays and decided to make Obtineo a priority.

. . . . and then T went MIA.

With Tyler’s life on the line, the Obtineo project once again took a back seat. Cory and I focused all our mental muscles on keeping KickFire alive and bringing Tyler home.

Thanks to God, friends, and the world at large, our crowdfunding and marketing efforts worked! Tyler is now home receiving the care he needs as he heals and recovers.

. . . . And wonders when we are going to release Obtineo?

Seriously, that was one of the first questions Tyler asked when I first saw him at the hospital. Obtineo was always his baby, and that’s when I realized that if we hoped to successfully fund Obtineo, we were going to need a cause greater than ourselves. We were going to need to harness the power of an already invested and concerned social network.

In a flash of insight, I knew exactly what we needed to do. We had to incorporate Tyler’s tale into our current Kickstarter campaign. I told Cory my idea and he went to work recrafting the video script. As always, he nailed it!

Last night I was able to capture some footage of me and T playing Obtineo. I told him of our new Kickstarter plans. He was thrilled beyond measure.

Obtineo the Game Obtineo Tyler Seamons and Janelle Page

I’m a firm believer in the divine timing of all things. Had we launched our Kickstarter back when originally planned, I feel it might not have funded. But today, I’m excited as I realize the right time for Obtineo is now! We’ve got an open runway with a killer cause. Our flight is not a slam-dunk, but for the first time in the history of this project, I’m stoked for take-off.

I’ve witnessed first hand the power of God, friends, and social sharing. If the world needs Obtineo–heck, if only Chad or Tyler needs Obtineo–it will fund.

And, if what the world really needs to obtain from Obtineo is yet another powerful reminder that God is good, friends are real, and miracles happen every day, then I will count this marketing campaign–regardless of whether it funds or not–a complete and total success!

Tyler, this one is for you!

[insert new video here]

Good God

Good God, I am speechless for God’s goodness never ceases to amaze me! He comes through for me every. single. time.

Minus our fellow crewmate T, Cory and I have borne a heavy burden. We’ve been praying for salvation and when we kept feeling drawn time and again to the resume submitted by Mr. Matt Seely, we decided it was divine guidance.

So we figured out a way we could make the numbers work. If we could consolidate our team of many part-time workers into a full-time position, we could offer him a measly start. A start, that if willing, could grow into something bigger. Just like I had to start with little and grow into bigger, as did T, then Cory, this new person would earn by sweat equity.

And so we called Matt on the phone, proposed our offering. It felt like little, but we were not ashamed for it was from whence we had come, plus we knew that if he were worth his weight in gold, his time earning meager would be but a small moment. He understood and we laid the reality of our situation before him. It didn’t dissuade him, but he did need time to consider our proposition for he had various opportunities before him, all much more lucrative than ours.

I got off the phone and told Cory I hoped he would choose us for I really liked him and felt he was just what we needed, but I also didn’t stress it for I knew that if he was the right fit he would choose us. It was this calm assurance that if he wasn’t the right one, God would supply another. I’ve never had this much confidence before. I’ve always believed God would provide and he has, but this time I KNEW it. Deep down in my bones.

With that little background between us, allow me to copy and paste our email exchange. There’s no reason for me to recount it any other way for it is the pinnacle of perfection:

Janelle and Cory,

Thanks so much for the awesome conversation on Tuesday. It was so fun to feel your passion and excitement for what you are doing.

I know I said I would email you tomorrow morning but I’m afraid we are going to be too busy getting out of town. I’ve had no sleep for 38+ hours, we’re getting down to the wire!

My old CEO called me on Wednesday and presented a very enticing offer. Great base salary, full benefits, generous stock options, and a bright future as their Director of Marketing. I’d be crazy not to take their offer; so, call me crazy.

You guys got me so excited about KickFire! I have been itching to dive into this side of Marketing for a long time. Going back to my previous employers would be a repetition of skills I’ve already acquired. With KickFire, I will use the skills I’ve acquired, but also enter the University of Janelle and Cory to learn and grow, and that sounds amazing. 

I would love to be a support to you guys to get your company back to where it was and then work together to keep taking it further. I’m not sure how your conversation went with your accountant, but it would be awesome to come home to my inbox full of training emails. J

Please let me know if you need anything from me and I’ll wait to hear from you. Thanks!

 All the best,

Matt

and here is my reply:

I wish you could have heard me and Cory squealing and laughing with joy last night when at 10:30 pm we read your message! I called him on the phone and we had a celebration!

I have to tell you that we have both been praying for miracles as we navigate this time of transition and the Good Lord has kept them coming. You are another case in point. I cannot thank you, nor God, enough. 

I really am just thrilled beyond measure! The scriptures often speak of the inadequacy of words. On more than one occasion they too have failed me. Today is one of those days.

So, I’ll do my best to say what’s in my heart which is: 

Welcome aboard! I can attest that you are among good company for all of us here are probably certifiably crazy!  But ’tis the crazy ones that have the most fun! Plus, a wise man once said, “You need a little insanity to do great things!” also, “Dreams, if they are any good, are always a little bit crazy!” and finally, my favorite crazy quote:

The ones who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones that do!

So BRING ON THE CRAZY!

Matt, have the most wonderful day tomorrow! Marriage ROCKS! We love your wife as much as we love you for she consented to your becoming the newest member of the KickFire Crew. Please welcome her to the crazy train on our behalf. Please send pictures and please tell us her name!

We will have a nicely organized itinerary awaiting you upon your return. I CANNOT WAIT! You have already enthused us beyond measure. Hugs, kisses and God’s greatest blessings showering down upon your priceless head!

p.s. Your email was perfectly composed. Just the right amount of suspension. My heart did a little dip when I thought it was a declination email. .. then you turned the tables and it was quite the trip. Bless your email and copywriting genius! You were born for this Crew and no doubt you have “come to the kingdom for such a time as this!”

Thank you, God, for your goodness. I don’t deserve it, but I sure appreciate you Good God. Amen and Glory, Glory, Hallelujah!

New Life

Today Cory and I interviewed a man by the name of Matt. We need to find someone to fill T’s shoes. T will never be replaced. Indeed, no one could ever replace a man like T. But the burden being borne by me and C is too heavy to be borne by us alone so we decided it was time.

Matt is young, hungry and perfect for the position. We can’t afford to pay him what he’s worth, but since when have we been paying anyone in the Trifecta their weight in gold? We told him he’d be making as much as us and we were all committed to getting our income back up to where it was prior to the cancer. 🙂

He wants to be with us, but he has other factors to consider. A wife who may not be keen to see her husband with a startup, banking on success rather than set up with a “secure” 9-5 position.  Just talking with Matt about what we do and how we do it brought new life to my wearied bones. I’ve been running myself ragged and feeling like I want nothing more than to run away from it all. But the energy Matt brought to our call and the excitement I felt as all three of us schemed. . . well, it was positively electric!

I’m fine with whatever happening as I have come to know that whatever happens is right and for a reason. So I will just pray that Matt does what he feels will bring him the most pleasure and if that’s us then it will be epic. If it’s not us, I’m glad he decides it now rather than 3 months into the gig. I know that if Matt doesn’t work out, someone else will. There is someone out there in the works for our team and I know the Lord will provide and the universe will supply.

I’ve got a to-do list that’s only half-way done, but I’ve also got a 2-hour massage starting in 10 minutes so what do I care that I’ll be up again until the wee hours of the night. . or is it the early hours of the morn? haha

Either way, I feel infused with new life. Thanks Matt for that!

A True Treasure

Last night my mom gave me the best gift ever–a true treasure. For my birthday I asked her to draw me a yellow-breasted finch. Check it out:

My mom is an incredible artist and I’ve been begging her to paint me a picture for quite some time. I finally got clever enough to ask her for it for my birthday. I told her to just sketch me a quick yellow-breasted finch. I wanted the yellow-breasted finch because they are one of my special spirit animals. Whenever I go for my morning meditation walks, yellow-breasted finches appear. It’s one of the ways God or spirit communicates love to me.

It will now be a symbol my mom can use when she crosses over to the other side to let me know she is near. Spirits often use animals–esp birds, butterflies, dragonflies, and ladybugs to let us know they are near. I have cool experiences like this every day and today was especially full of them. Before heading out for my morning walk, I listened to a quick devotional by Dr. Wayne Dyer. He shared the story of how he was able to obtain the butterfly on his finger for his front cover picture on Inspiration

He was outside meditating and working on his book, when this butterfly came and landed on his finger. It sat and played on his finger for quite some time, and after about 30 minutes he finally figured he should obtain a picture.

I LOVE Dr. Dyer. He’s one of my mentors and since he’s already on the other side, I invite him to teach me in my dreams. He often appears imparting words of wisdom. Last night was one of those nights. He was at a whiteboard working a complex algebraic equation. I asked him why his equation was so long (to me the algebraic equation symbolized all his light and learning–his collected wisdom) and he looked at me and replied, “It comes from a life well lived.” I then asked him if that was a book of his, and he told me to go google it. Upon awaking, I did, and discovered a tribute about him called, “A Life Well-Lived. It was a wonderful read to start my Sunday morning.

So you can imagine it was no surprise when on my morning walk a beautiful monarch butterfly caught my eye as it flew immediately alongside. Dr. Dyer taught me long ago, that whenever animals in nature come exceedingly close to pause and take note of whatever I’m thinking. At that moment I was deciding once again in my mind to not have my chest and ovaries surgically removed. The butterfly flew right up alongside me in that precise moment and I took it as a sign that I was once again making the right choice for me at this particular time.

Later, as I was expressing my gratitude for all my many blessings and thinking about God, life, the spirit, and how it communicates with me, I felt something on my neck. I reached back and when I brought my hand forward, there on my finger was a spotless ladybug. It crawled around on my finger for over a minute, till I finally–like Dr. Dyer–had the thought that I too should take a picture. So I grabbed out my camera and as I went to snap a shot I said to the butterfly, “it would be really cool if I could capture a pic of you in flight.” And this is what he did:

Pretty epic huh?! I think it was actually Dr. Dyer using that ladybug to communicate with me. Or it was God once again affirming his love for me. I’m choosing to believe it was both. And regarding yellow-breasted finches? Well, my mother now knows how special they are to me so I have no doubt she’ll make use of them whenever I’m out and about to let me know she is near. And now and in the future, whenever I see one, I’ll think of her and how much she and God love me. And hopefully whenever she’s out and about and sees one she’ll think of me! Now, that’s a true treasure!

T Time

Today was one of the happiest days of my life! I was able to finally see T! It has been over 3 months since I last saw him and it was a most joyous reunion. One I never want to forget. Here are some pics and videos that say it all:

I had so much fun with him today! I’ll never forget making him do his exercises and him telling me that I just made him pee himself. I was feeding him Oreos too and he started to choke and we were laughing so hard. We talked about business. I showed him the Obtineo video and he loved it! He loved our event landing page too. Rebecca was there for a good hour and then had to leave. She amazed me! She was handling everything with perfect equanimity and grace. She is a miracle for him right now too!

I was so glad I was there when the Neurologist showed up. She told Tyler about his diagnosis. I was able to hear her tell him that he had a good square inch of his frontal lobe removed. The area that controls his executive function. I knew he had a tumor the size of a racquet ball removed, but I had no idea they had removed some of his brain. I told Rebecca and she also did not know. The doctor said he would begin radiation next week and that his prognosis was not good. She said he would most likely not ever walk again and would be confined to a wheelchair and had a year if he was lucky. Tyler told her he had 4 kids. She said she knew that. I was rubbing his back and arm the entire time. I was SO grateful to be there holding him up as he received that news.

I told him who cares what the docs say.  I told him that if God wants him dead, he will die. If God wants him alive, he will survive, and even thrive! He looked me in the eyes and said, “I’m not afraid of death.” I said, “I know. And I’m not afraid either.” I told him to remember our pact. He asked what our pact was. I told him we promised each other we’d come visit each other after we die. He said yes and then we shook on it. 🙂

Tyler thanked the doctor for telling him the truth. He said no one had told him yet that he had stage 4 brain cancer and that he was going to die.

After the doctor left I told him we are all going to die. He laughed and we both made jokes about dying. It was fun. It changed nothing and yet it has already changed everything. But that change took place over a month ago when I first heard about his tumor. My heart knew then, as it does now, that Tyler is 100% in God’s hands. There’s not a better place to be. I’m going to support and love Tyler on this journey. It’s going to be a fun one for all of us. He’s so damn tough. And he’s just the best guy ever so when he does die, I’m not worried about him one bit. He’s already pure as gold. Thank you God for today. Thank you God for Tyler.

We told each other we love each other at least 5 times. I’ll never forget my T time today.

Oh and how fitting that once I got back to my car, FB posted this photo to my timeline:

Divine Serendipity!