T Time

Today was one of the happiest days of my life! I was able to finally see T! It has been over 3 months since I last saw him and it was a most joyous reunion. One I never want to forget. Here are some pics and videos that say it all:

I had so much fun with him today! I’ll never forget making him do his exercises and him telling me that I just made him pee himself. I was feeding him Oreos too and he started to choke and we were laughing so hard. We talked about business. I showed him the Obtineo video and he loved it! He loved our event landing page too. Rebecca was there for a good hour and then had to leave. She amazed me! She was handling everything with perfect equanimity and grace. She is a miracle for him right now too!

I was so glad I was there when the Neurologist showed up. She told Tyler about his diagnosis. I was able to hear her tell him that he had a good square inch of his frontal lobe removed. The area that controls his executive function. I knew he had a tumor the size of a racquet ball removed, but I had no idea they had removed some of his brain. I told Rebecca and she also did not know. The doctor said he would begin radiation next week and that his prognosis was not good. She said he would most likely not ever walk again and would be confined to a wheelchair and had a year if he was lucky. Tyler told her he had 4 kids. She said she knew that. I was rubbing his back and arm the entire time. I was SO grateful to be there holding him up as he received that news.

I told him who cares what the docs say.  I told him that if God wants him dead, he will die. If God wants him alive, he will survive, and even thrive! He looked me in the eyes and said, “I’m not afraid of death.” I said, “I know. And I’m not afraid either.” I told him to remember our pact. He asked what our pact was. I told him we promised each other we’d come visit each other after we die. He said yes and then we shook on it. 🙂

Tyler thanked the doctor for telling him the truth. He said no one had told him yet that he had stage 4 brain cancer and that he was going to die.

After the doctor left I told him we are all going to die. He laughed and we both made jokes about dying. It was fun. It changed nothing and yet it has already changed everything. But that change took place over a month ago when I first heard about his tumor. My heart knew then, as it does now, that Tyler is 100% in God’s hands. There’s not a better place to be. I’m going to support and love Tyler on this journey. It’s going to be a fun one for all of us. He’s so damn tough. And he’s just the best guy ever so when he does die, I’m not worried about him one bit. He’s already pure as gold. Thank you God for today. Thank you God for Tyler.

We told each other we love each other at least 5 times. I’ll never forget my T time today.

Oh and how fitting that once I got back to my car, FB posted this photo to my timeline:

Divine Serendipity!

Everything is a Miracle

Alber Einstein once said:

There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.

I agree with Einstein. Today 3 really cool things happened to me that were miracles. First, I woke up with business ideas flowing. Incredible ideas that I have already started implementing. Basically, I created KickFire Kids, totally devoted to helping children light up their learning. We help children want to learn by bribing them with KickFire Classic toys.

2nd, I found a Rogue One lego mini-figure on my morning walk. This was important to me because of some recent Luke Skywalker dreams featuring his green light saber.

3rd, I was thinking upon my new business idea from my morning dreams and one of my familiar manifestations of spirit (beautiful finch—yellow breasted to boot) flew right over my head and landed on the phone wire. He was boisterous as ever, and as I posed questions, he chattered away. His communications brought clarity of thought.

Finally, I was thinking about how I needed to reach back out to Weber State University about the Nye Lecture Series. I have been too busy to meet them for lunch and agree to once again present. I made a mental note to respond today and what should appear in my inbox? Yep, an email from their director requesting a lunch with me to discuss an upcoming presentation they would like me to do. It was so fun to have a 4th witness today that God and Spirit is actively involved in my life. Divine synchronicity is always at play. We simply must have “eyes to see” and “ears to hear.” Yes, Mr. Einstein, everything is a miracle!


Ryan and Lindsay shared a cool experience last night. Weatherford T. Clayton of the Quorum of the Seventy was their visiting General Authority for Stake Conference and he showed up to their house with the Stake President to give Lindsay a blessing.

He rebuked her cancer and told her cells to heal. He said he felt impressed to bless her with a complete healing. They said it was the most tender, sweet experience ever. I can’t wait to hear all about it from Lindsay’s lips.

She has been through so much and we have been praying and fasting fervently. I feel so ecstatic for Lindsay and so grateful for the goodness of God.

I believe in healers and healings. Weatherford has been a physician for his vocation and appeareth to be a great man of God. Fingers crossed and faith exercising that this is miracle we’ve all been wishing, pleading, petitioning, and patiently waiting for.

To Tell or Not to Tell

Riddle me this:

Sometimes the Lord charged those he healed to tell no man. Other times he told them to share their miraculous healing.

For example:

“And, behold, there came a leper and worshipped him, saying, Lord, if thou wilt, thou canst make me clean.

“And Jesus put forth his hand, and touched him, saying, I will; be thou clean. And immediately his leprosy was cleansed.

“And Jesus saith unto him, See thou tell no man.” (Matt. 8:2–4.)

And then after casting out the many devils, Jesus commands Legion:

Return to thine own house, and shew how great things God hath done unto thee. And he went his way, and published throughout the whole city how great things Jesus had done unto him (Matthew 8:39).

Why the different charges to tell or not to tell?

I have some ideas. But I’m headed to bed. Some day I shall write more.